My Journey
High-Achiever and Perfectionist: the Conditioned Self
I’ve lived the American Dream of ‘pull yourself up by your bootstraps’ and ‘the only person you can depend on is yourself.’
Maybe you’ve felt that way too. But no one tells you this dream leads to less sleep and even nightmares of never being finished. And that hamster wheel labeled “more is necessary” never seems to be at rest; it continually beckons for more productivity, more of your life energy.
While I’ve been blessed with a career I loved, there were many bumps along the way that highlighted how my desire for perfection and high-achievement caused my identity to be more about what I did than who I am.
Difficulties caused me to question the value of my pursuit, both the achievements themselves and the life investment necessary. Life disruptions included a layoff, a firing, an unsuccessful start-up venture, and the unwelcome prompting from the Lord to choose my family over my career.
I was forced to come face-to-face with who I was becoming.
Inspiring Connection: the Natural Self
Even as I was pursuing my career to the fullest, the Lord stretched me to trust Him and used every experience, good and bad, for His purposes. My sales career has been one of making connections between products and customers in an individualized fashion and even on a grander scale, between two organizations undergoing contract negotiations.
When two other colleagues and I started a company, a test revealed that I am a Builder, or a Synthesizer. This resonated with me because I have always felt of myself as a “connector” of people and ideas, one who brings together disparate and novel concepts or persons formerly unknown to one another. Through my life experiences and my career, the Lord helped me discover my natural bent: Inspiring Connections.
Soul Connection: the God-designed Spiritual Self
After wrestling with the Lord over my career, He brought forth something new and so much better, in the form of Bible study and eventually Bible teaching. Studying and discerning the central idea from a passage of scripture that would encourage or challenge our Community Bible Study class to pursue the Lord in deeper ways became a passion.
Meditating on God’s Word will be a lifelong pursuit and one which directs my passions and activities. Presently, I am immersed in helping others make connections with the Lord through spiritual direction. I am privileged to help others discover the Lord’s invitations as they journey through life.